Dear GOD,
I tried to write to you every Sunday last year, but it didn’t last long. This year, I want to write to you. I have two goals: To get myself healthy and not rely too much on people. I gained a lot of weight, and it affected my independence. I take so much pride in my independence and don’t want to give it up because I can’t keep my mouth shut from eating. I’m not calling upon you because I feel we have that connection yet. If I did call upon you, I would feel I was using you as a 911 button. I fell.
Second, I would like to have a relationship with you so that when I feel like I need to call upon you, I won’t feel awkward. You don’t judge anyone, but I still judge myself when I feel as if I want to ask you something. For me, it feels as if I’m asking someone I don’t know for money. A few years ago, I started this program. A lot of it is based on spirituality. I know spirituality and that you are two different things, but you do go hand in hand most of the time. The program has all kinds of people with disabilities. My biggest why is that people with disabilities believe in you and trust in you so much. My mom told me once that people need someone to cling to and gest your it. I just don’t that way. I was born this way for a reason I may not know what that reason is but that ok. It took me very long time to know who I am. There have been parts of me that I haven’t like because of my disability. It was challeging for me to see that when empowered my disability not only did my disability win I won to. For me it wasn’t about believing in you it was about believing in myself.
Did you help me believe in myself? Maybe, but I won’t give you all the credit.
Until next week.
Thank You,
Marie
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